I’m taking the stand to forgive me today.

It may sound weird to others but this took a lot of courage to say.

I’ve done so much damage and caused so much hurt to myself.

And I’m tired of looking in the mirror and feeling guilt and shame.

Like have you ever felt so weak you couldn’t even cry?

So weak you couldn’t even look yourself in the eye?

Well, that’s me currently and I’m tired.

I’ve gone on my knees countless times begging God’s forgiveness.

And I couldn’t comprehend why or how it was so easy for Him to do so.

Like He couldn’t see how dirty my hands were.

How corrupted my mind had become.

The thing is God saw everything and still loved me.

God saw everything and still counted me worthy to forgive.

Now it’s up to me.

And I choose to do the same.

Olamide I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for constantly failing you.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for constantly leading you astray.

I’m sorry.

I’m sorry for not seeing your worth.

I forgive you.

I forgive you for raising your hand against yourself.

Lastly…

I love you.

I love you and everything you were and all that you are becoming.

Now go in peace knowing this is true and that you are loved!

~ Olamide Iyaomolere